Burden In My Heart....

"What the hell?" I muttered. I burnt my fingers again. It's a weekend and I was pathetically trying to cook. So,I thought its better I eat outside as usual. Within 15 minutes I was in Mc D. "Hello Sir! Can I take your order?" greeted the Mc D boy. I think they recognize me by now, I am a regular face you see. "Of course you can." I said. And smiles all around." I will decide in a minute." I said. "Sure Sir." The boy replied smiling as if he is happy that he will not be taking my order. I wonder whether they trained in "Smiling" too. "Boy you are useless." Smile. "Boy I am useless." Smile. "I want one Maharaja and one medium coke."
"So you are quick to choose now." Now that sounds familiar. I turned back and there she was.
"Oh... Hi. aaaa... Ambika."
"Is it so hard to recall my name, Chandru." And all smiles. "Sir your order."
"Oh yes! Can I take your order? What do you want?"
"It's okay, I will give my own order. You go and sit somewhere." It's 4 years since I left the college but I guess some things never change. She is still the boss.
Within 5 minutes she was above my head. "Can I sit with you?" "Oh! Yes."*(Like I had any other choice.) "Are you shocked or what?"
"No, just it was unexpected. So what are you doing in Bangalore?"
"Same as you, working. I was sent for a project. This market is nearest to our guest house so I thought to roam. Feeling hungry so came to Mc D."
I started devouring my burger with proper sound effects.
"You still do not know how to eat."
"Oh sorry."
"So how is life? Still single?"
"Yes."
I don't know what was wrong with her eyes, but I have never been able to make contact with those two sources of light protruding into my soul. Her eyes always seem moist to me. Earlier I thought its because she is "I can cry anytime" girl, then I thought, no may be her eyes are showing sympathy for a looser like me but later I realized it's love that has made her eyes so lively for me. So from that day onwards I restrained myself from looking into her eyes.
"Are you still afraid to make eye contact with me?" Asked Ambika. (What are you, a mind reader, I thought in my mind.)
Within 5 minutes i finished my burger and she was still playing with hers.
"Well then! I will see you around."
"Yes. Of course. By the way, although you did not ask but let me tell you. I am married. My husband works in the same company as mine."
"Oh congratulations. Bye." Those Mc D boys were still laughing, I hope on me. This time I did not smile back. I calmly went outside Mc D, took a deep breath, looked into the sky. There are times when even your mind does not know which emotion to choose to reflect on your face. I took steps towards my home. Those steps were the heaviest I had ever taken.

The writing here is solely a fictional work of Atul Rawat. Any resemblance to any person living or dead or any event is purely co-incidental.