I love You

It has been a week since I put Prateeksha, my wife in flames of fire. But it seems that it has been years since I lost her. If she would be alive she must be celebrated our 30th marriage anniversary next month.

Today after putting lot of efforts I managed to come to the park. But nothing seems to be interesting. Everything is gloomy. Old as well as young people are walking to keep fit. Children are playing, their mothers are chatting, as well as keeping sharp eyes on their kids to protect them from any misfortune. The park is crowded but it felt like I am the only one who is alone in this world. In past 30 years there was not even a single day when I came alone in this park. I want to shout, I want to cry as well but the effort is in vain.

"It has been some time I am sitting here, let me go back to home", I tell to myself. People are also looking for empty benches to sit. A small girl may be of 8-10 years with her father is coming directly towards me. Might be they are coming for the bench as well. As that little girl comes near to me, she reminds me of Prateeksha. She have the same eyes, big and black.

That little girl stop in front of me and said, "Thank You for everything you and aunty did to me. I can also see now". This remind me of Prateeksha's wish of donating eyes to someone after death. Drops of tears were making their way on my wrinkled face but I am smiling. It felt like I am not alone anymore, Prateeksha is somewhere near to me, watching me, smiling as always and saying "I Love You".

Disclaimer: The story and characters are work of fiction. Any resemblance is purely coincidental.

Slumdog Millionaire - Is it really worth

Slumdog Millionaire. Nice movie to watch. A small movie with full Bollywood masala. It is like any other Bollywood masala flick. But why then it is making a lots of fuzz in the international arena. It has already got 4 Golden Globe awards and nominated for 10 categories in Oscars. I really do not see any reson.

The only reason I could think of is some white man Danny Boyle directed the movie. As far as acting is concern it is no where near to legend Bollywood actors. Even Anil Kapoor has acted better in his own other movies. But still the movie is widely acclaimed.

As far as A. R. Rahman is concern no doubt his music is always good. But he could have got that (Golden Globe) for other Bollywood movies also.

It is a good movie but is it really better than Wednesday, Swadesh, Taare zameen Par, Rang De Basanti so on an so forth? I don't think so.

As I already mentioned the only reason why this movie is making news is the involvement of some foreigners. This shows how the awards have been distributed there. They all have notions that we can not make the movies for Oscars but I believe and know that some of our movies are better than there awarded movies.

Some things should better go unsaid !!!

"We've been in relation from last one year. How will I say this to her?". I said to myself while looking into the mirror. "But she is mature. She can handle this. I wish she do not make big fuss about it". I assured myself with these words and wash my face. I shaved my two weeks old beard. It was a long time I met her that's why I did not shave since long.

I went to my wardrobe and try to find a T-Shirt. As any other software engineer none of my T-Shirt was clean. So, I started looking for the T-Shirt which was least dirty. Somehow I found a decent enough T-shirt and a pair of jeans. While dressing I was unable to stop myself from thinking about Sonia, my girl friend. I guess I've already mentioned that I was seeing her from last one year. Today I am going for date with her last time. Afterall, I am going to get married after three months. My parents have selected a girl for me whom I also had met and agreed to marry. Today I am planning to tell Sonia that I would no longer be seeing her anymore.

Today I called her in Forum. For this date I wanted a crowded place and where can you get more crowd other than Forum itself. Actually she may make fuss about this issue so I selected a crowded place where she will restrict herself of doing that. I smiled at myself and appreciated my intelligence.

When I reached there she was waiting for me. But she was looking different from other days. It seemed there is melancholy spread everywhere. She was looking dull, in fact very dull. "Is she OK today?. Had she got the idea of what I am going to tell her today?" Just thought. "Anyways how does matter. Today is last date we are going to have", I re-assured myself. After small greetings we started towards third floor food-court. It was unusual short greeting today we had. we have bought a pizza and two coke and found a corner seat in that over-crowded place. We talked about work, office, latest movies - Ghajini, Rab ne Bana di Jodi, and Aamir Khan.

Suddenly she changed her emotions and started saying. "Pawan, I do not know how to start but listen to me carefully". She left me puzzled. "I know you are mature enough to understand my situation. Even though we are in relation from last one year but I can not carry it anymore. My parents have selected a guy for me and I also said yes to him. He is in US in Microsoft.". She left me baffled. One one hand I was shocked and on the other hand it felt that someone has off-loaded a heavy burden from my head. With this dual feelings I came back to home, give it a thought and as a daily ritual I was dialing a number of my fiancee in my mobile.

Disclaimer: The story and characters are work of fiction. Any resemblance is purely coincidental.

Everything Which Glitters is not Gold.

Last weekend was an eye-opener for me. It was one of the most eventful weekend for me. From a long time me and my friends were making a plan to go to pub but I was just ditching them by some reason or other. But last week they did not hear any of my excuse and we went to Milky Way, one of the renowned pub in the heart of the city Brigade last Saturday.

After 45 minutes drive (even the distance is just 6 km to cover) in Vishal's car from Indra Nagar we reached Brigade and spent another 20 minutes in search of parking place. The pub was over crowded on the day as it was "Weekend" in Bangalore when whole city rush to pubs, discos, restaurants. Milky Way was playing loud Rock music. The light was dim. Every corner was filled with gang of girls and boys, who were chilling out with their drinks and different brands of cigerattes. No one was bother about another person. By the way I forgot to introduce my friends who were with me on that day, oops night. I've already mentioned about Vishal, another was Ashish. As I don't want to spend much words in those those guys I'll come back to my story. Initially everything seems to be quite boring. We asked for Beer and started gulping it. Yes of'course we were cribbing our jobs, managers almost everything in this whole world while doing all this.

But between all this I saw a girl sitting alone with her beer. My God! she was the most sexiest girl I have ever seen in my life. Might be it was the beer which was giving me that picture but for sure she was one of the most sexiest girl I've ever seen. All of my senses started working towards the option of talking to her. I got an idea and told my friends that I'll be back in five minutes and make a point towards restroom. But went to the table where she was sitting.

"May I sit here, every corner is full". I asked. "Yeah sure". She replied. It was like a dream come true. Her soft voice had made my evening. Now I started thinking for more. After that we were chatting and I asked her for a drink too. The drinks alongwith the beauty were affecting double that day. When I thought of just taking her for a drive she prompted me "Look you have already taken enough of time." I was shocked with that response. She continued while picking her glass of wine (which I bought her), "Please spare me. And yeah you can pay if you want more."

Without having any words with her I came to my friends who were still with beer. Suddenly my boredom was over and I was enjoying even with my friends.

Disclaimer: The story and characters are work of fiction. Any resemblance is purely coincidental.

Marriage - A Path Not a Destiny

2009 is going to be eventful year for sure. 7 batchmates are going to get married after all. From last couple of weeks some of them in Bangalore was asking for some help regarding marriage life. Initially I thought they were just joking but when I felt their seriousness for this matter I was compelled to think about the same. I am not the SME (Subject matter Expert) for this topic but sharing what I think about marriage. Here are some points.

Disclaimer: Some of the points I made will be correct only for men.

Friendship: The most important part of the marriage is look for a friend. Remember how we talk to our friends, give respect to them, ignore those silly fights about weird topics, be with them in their tough times, sometimes give privacy to them, do not expect any gifts from them on birthday even after throwing a party and list goes on. The same happens in the married life. once we are done with exploring each other bodies this "Friendship" keeps our relationship alive. So just be a friend.

Ready to get change: By the way why we say yes to marriage. If your answer is one of these due to parents pressure, due to social pressure, my friends have been married etc, the I'll seriously suggest you to wait and introspect and ask "Am I ready for the marriage?". The reason you are marrying is you want to change your current way of living and ready to move to new phase of life where you want to take responsibility of not only your own but of your partner also. So why you fight when someone tells you to change your habit of throwing wet towel on bed? Why you fight when someone tells you to keep things in place? Why do you fight when someone tells your not to rub your face with curtains? We married because we want change so change these habits. You do not want to loose your marriage for these silly habits.

Micro management vs Macro Management: In the professional life as you keep growing up in the ladder, you are supposed to macro manage the things. if you try to micro manage your subordinates you are pissing them off. the same holds good in married life. Never ever try to micro manage. The food is not good, these rotis are not well cooked, masala is not proper in the vegetable. I am a man, I'll not do household jobs etc etc. Believe me the list is very very long.

Comparison is the key: Yes! comparison is the key to fight. Never ever compare your spouse or his/her work with others. Gentlemen please avoid comparing your wife with your mother. She is not. Ladies all the men hates appreciation of Bollywood hunks in front of them even if they do not show it.

I had enough. Couple of last words. It is true that marriage is made in heaven but to make it last is your responsibility.

Ghajini - A Disappointment

I've just reached home after watching one of the most awaited movie of this year "GHAJINI" and unable to stop myself writing about it. In fact I was also waiting for the movie to be released because Aamir is in lead role in this movie and he is one of my favorite. I was expecting a lot from it especially when the Tamil version of this movie was a big hit.

But frankly speaking the movie was a huge disappointment for me. Big disappointment. I felt nothing in the movie. The movie was unable to relate with the viewer. It was just another Bollywood masala movie. Nothing more than that.

One of the funniest part of the movie is in the last sequence when hero was chasing villain. When hero reached to the villian after defeating at least 15 of his Goondas and only villian is left, he told to hero "Ab to gaya tu". Oh man!!!! it was he, the Goonda who was in problem, not the hero. How can he say this to the hero, who has already killed all the men. Anyways, after this dialouge same happened what generally happens in all the bollywood movies.

By the way when I am talking about last sequence I must tell you that it was total fake. Hero can remember the things only for just 15 mins. In that 15 minutes not only hero reach to villain's place from the hospital as well as did all the fight but hero still remember everything. In fact in the whole movie I got the idea is that hero lost his memory only when he wants to.

If all this would have happened in other movie I had not given a single thought about it. But Aamir, the so called Perfectionist was working in this movie so unable to ignore these silly things.

Anyways it will be one of the biggest hit of the year even if Aamir's fan watch this movie once. But for me it's one of the biggest flop of the year. May be 1 out of 5.